My soul is torn apart
Posted by Intuition Girl
Joan Marie,
My soul is torn apart right now. I am married but for about two years or so I’ve been having heavy thoughts of another man. I met him at my job. About a year ago
he was fired and I haven’t heard from or seen him since but still the thoughts continued to grow stronger and stronger. I actually thought of divorcing my husband
over these thoughts they were so strong (and I confessed these thoughts to my husband because I felt guilty having them). Instead I tried to put the thought of this person out of my mind, but couldn’t. There was some speculation that this person had a drug addition so I thought maybe I’m thinking about him for reasons other than us to be together. I started praying that he be free from his addition and that life brings all the blessings any man could find (health, happiness, success,inner peace, true love, etc). Since I couldn’t stop thinking about him I decided to send a text message to the phone number that I had for him. I thought that maybe if he knew someone cared, it would help him through.
Well I sent that message last night and this morning I received a text message from a friend that this person recently died of a heart attack. He just had a
birthday the 19th of January and just turned 31.
Joan Marie, I don’t know why I care or feel love for this person. We never hung out or spoke outside of work and like I mentioned he has been gone from the company for
a year now. Somehow, I feel like I love him and care about him. Since I am married I resisted reaching out because I believe in loyalty and faithfulness, but now I feel like I should have reached out to him to let him know that I cared and wanted to be his friend. Maybe somehow it could have made a difference in his life. I’m not sure if the heart attack is related to drug use, but at his age, it seems to be the case. I feel like I misinterpreted the messages I’d been receiving about him and feel great sorrow. Maybe the messages were to help him.
I always ask for prayer and ask at this time if you could send a prayer to his family and to him for his soul to be at peace.
Thank you.
Elizabeth
